A New Beginning

I'm starting over today. I had another blog but unfortunately, I was keepin it a little TOO real for some of my family. I feared the judgment that came with telling people how you really felt about something. I wish I didn't care. But I do.

So I decided to just start over. I like to write and I'm going to keep this little blog to myself. For me. Something just for me! If you read, great - if not, who cares! O.K. I do, but seriously it all comes out here. No holding back.

First of all let me tell you ("you" meaning whoever) what is bothering me today:


Treading Lightly
My friend was going to let me borrow her treadmill. Granted we talked about it a month ago, but I did bring it up two weekends ago, just to be sure she knew I was still interested. But yesterday I found out that she borrowed it to someone else! Without even calling me? What's that about? She sent me an email saying "Since I didn't hear anything from you for a while..." Blah, Blah, Blah. First of all, it's only been 4 weeks. I can't move the thing myself, WWH (Wonderful Welder Husband) has to help me and it's SNOWMOBILE Season! I can't get the guy to do anything during this time. We've had record snow! The temps have either been bitter cold or raining, so moving anything large isn't really prudent. I guess what bothers me the most is the fact that she just thinks I was blowing smoke, that I wasn't ever going to come and get the machine so when someone else expressed a need, she just gave up on me and didn't even bother to call. This person she gave it to may need it more than me - maybe so - but still it's not something I expect from a good friend.

When she emailed me yesterday, I just said "Well, I did bring it up but maybe you didn't hear me". Why didn't I say something else, like "Why wouldn't you pick up the phone and call me first?" I have this fear of confronting people who do me wrong. I let it build and build and build and then someday way down the road, she will ask me to pass the potatoes and I will snap! :)

How do I handle this now? Because I didn't say anything to her right away do I have to let it go? What are your thoughts?